The computer screen is swimming in front of my eyes. I pull together every fibre of mental strength in order to finish my sentence: “… streamlining the governance structures of the organisation for maximum…” for maximum what? Accountability? Efficiency? Cabbage? Impact! Impact. Phew.

This is my first attempt to work since baby Moe was born. Isla, a former colleague who now has a high-up job in the arts, has asked me to help write an annual report. It’s a decent day rate, and I can do it from home. If I don’t mess it up there may be more work forthcoming.

This is a cheering prospect, as we are crazy broke. My clothes are actually threadbare: the other day I was chatting to some rather stylish mothers outside Larry’s nursery, and only realised when I got home that my jeans had ripped right across the arse – and not in an on-trend way. Also, the fateful day upon which we will have to renew the car insurance is looming. So I am definitely, definitely not in a position to look a gift horse in the mouth.

The problem is that Baby Moe is still not sleeping. At all. For a reason I have not yet managed to identify he wakes up several times a night, and often howls for more than an hour before, equally inexplicably, popping his thumb in his mouth and drifting off again. I have ruled out hunger, illness and teething. Cuddles work, but only temporarily. Even Calpol seems to be losing its magic.

I am trying to implement a draconian sleep training regime, but it is difficult when you are so exhausted that you would gladly pawn your own grandmother for an unbroken four hours. Last night was particularly bad. At one point I found myself semi-conscious on the floor, with Moe draped across my face.

Anyway, here I am, A Writing And Editing Professional. Still in my pyjamas, yes, and smeared with porridge, maybe, but nevertheless, The Solution To All Your Editorial Needs.

“Er, I think he needs a feed.” Curly pokes his head around the door. He has been trying to keep Moe quiet in the other room so I can concentrate. I stagger across the room, crash-land on the sofa, and take Moe in my arms. As he suckles away, a delicious wave of relaxation sweeps over me. I lean my head back and close my eyes, just for a moment, just until….

“Babe, I’m sorry, I’ve gotta go.” Curly has his hand on my shoulder. I wrench my head from the cushions and stare at him uncomprehendingly. Go? But his course doesn’t start until seven. And I’ve only got to page three. And the deadline is tomorrow. “I’m sorry. I didn’t want to wake you up.”

He strokes my head. Moe, who after this marathon nap will definitely be awake all night, nuzzles innocently into my armpit. “Perhaps you should tell them you can’t do this work. You’re not ready.”

“I can’t pull out now!” I disentangle myself and run wildly back to my desk, hair akimbo. “I’ve committed… my reputation… have some standards… I’m a professional!” 

AuthorAlice O'Keeffe